I think I have pregnancy brain. No, I'm not preggers, but everyone around me is so I must have gotten it through osmosis. Pregnancy brain, also known as placenta brain or baby brain drain... can be characterized by short-term memory loss or forgetfullness. Hmm...it seems that I might have been born with pregnancy brain then. I guess its an exaggeration to say that every lady surrounding me is with-child....because remember, I'm living in a 55-and-older community and....well, that would be somethin' to blog about, wouldn't it ;-)
Fertile Myrtle stats: 2 out of my 3 sister-in-laws, best friend from home, best friend from here...and who knows, probably even my imaginary friend from childhood, Jimmy Tootie. James Thomas probably grew up, got himself hitched to an imaginary lady-friend and she's probably got an imaginary bun in the oven as well. It's great, don't get me wrong....I love pregnancy. Seriously, I am forever amazed at this phenomenon. So much so that I gotta keep a handle on myself so as not to spend the entire day staring at the bellies around me. I can't help it...It's just so amazing. I feel like when (Lord- willing) I have a little human growing inside of me...I will wake up everyday...in joyous shock.
My brother Matt, his wife Amberly, and my nephew Landon went back home to Georgia today. The lump in my throat is now slowly dissipating from holding back tears a little when I had to hug him goodbye...I was strong, though. I love being an Aunt. When Landon was born I was living at their house which allowed me to spend the first few months of his life with him...back when his little chicken legs used to curl up towards the nook of my shoulder...one of life's most wonderful feelings. Now that Landon is ALMOST FIVE, I had to think of an adventure mission just to be able to convince him to go with me to water a friend's plants the other day while they were out of town. I didn't mention the plant-watering to him....instead, I explained that we had to go on an Indiana Jones mission to save a bird. Once we got there, we found the treasure map and were able to speak with Indiana through an intercom system by which he delivered the message about our mission to save the bird.... and the flowers didn't die, so.... in both 4-year-old adventure world and 27-year-old responsibility world..... Missions were accomplished.
I really miss the South. I sang Ray Charles' Georgia on my mind at my gig the other night and it must have reminded my soul about sweet tea and grits because since then, I've been living in nostalgia. I miss letting the muscles of my mouth get sleepy as they settle into their comfortable twang. I miss cicada hums seeping through my bedroom windows, filling my room with their sweet sounds...acting as my personal noise machine for sleepy time. My eyes get heavy just thinking about it. I miss the waves and smiles on familiar faces as I turn onto my street....and the sound of country music or oldies blasting from the backyard as I pull up my driveway to my shirtless, sweaty Dad doing yard work as he greets me with his shirtless, sweaty hug.
I often dream of our house in Georgia...then I wake up, and I'm still in Pennsylvania, where some of the people are as unsweetened as their tea. I know, I'm exaggerating, its not that people up here aren't kind or giving... or loving - its just different. I have met people up here that feel like they are made of the same stuff as me. Ya know, heart friends. I'm thankful that God gives me people with similar guts. Even in the most difficult of seasons, I've always had at least one person who I connected with on a gut-to-gut level....see, I live in Pennsylvania where people say words like "gut" instead of "heart." Or "yo," instead of "hey y'all." The south has its draw-backs too...no one knows how to make a good "hoagie," and many of you reading this now won't even know what a hoagie is.
I wonder where I'll be in a year...and if I'll be dreaming of the 55-and-older...and how I was the cutest girl in the neighborhood ;-) I'd love to write more because thoughts are swimming, but I must go upstairs to dinner and soak up every second I have left with my sweet little munchkin niece.
...pictures to follow :-)